x. loving a person is when you realise you have been missing him even he is just right beside you
x. sometimes things will change no matter how much you didnt want them to.

. you will nva ever be replaced .
. i cherishh you for who you are .

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copyrightedd -piggyy-

[ `prayy hardd

. bonia wallet .

. dun wan to study .

. hope i am rich .

. want HIM back wif mi .

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

hey ppl... i am not using this blog of mine liao. changing it to this...
http://piggy-jac.blogspot.com

link mi and check out my daily life... hahax. bye.

3:10 PM
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Friday, April 29, 2005

hmmm... aRgH......! i woke up at 9plus today. cos of a dream that i had. that dream woke mi up. its something bout mi and him wan. haiz.. i will mention it at the bottom bahx. den, since i woke up so early. so i went to the bank lor. go get an atm card. but the queue is long, so i didnt queue. i went to shop alone at cwp lor. haiz. after that, went home liao lor. den i came online. i am away from the com for very long. nth to do also. den i went in to the room lor. lying there and day-dreaming again and again lor. haiz... i am still thking and missing him so much. how?!
den round 5plus, i came back to the com lor. surfing the net for awhile. den he came online ler. he came chatting with mi lor. bout some stuffs bahx. we chatted for bout one and a half hour. den meimei wan to use lor, so i went offline. den meimei also cook for mi, i also go and eat lor. after eating den i go and get my bath liao. after that, i went down and get something to eat lor. den came up, i watched the 9pm show on channel 8. after that, i chatted on phone with augusta for awhile lor. den here i am back online to blog. haiz.
okay, wat i dream of last night right. i dream that, we both got patch up only after half a year. den the date is 16/10/05 lor. we were both talking things out for a very long time den we patch back wan. after this, i got woke up already. dunno why i am so worry. haiz. i jus hope my dreams will come true one day lor. i dun wan my dream to end up being a lie to mi. mayb we shall leave it all to fate to bring us back together or wat lor. haiz. i cried again last night, cos i tot of him again! when will i jus stop myself from thking and crying over him?! as usual, i cry myself to bed ytd lor. haiz. sobx.
k lar. i dun wan say so much liao lor. hmm... thk i will be blogging everyday liao, although mayb i got nth to say lar. jus a short post from mi. cos mi everyday at home lor. damn damn boring lor. haiz. i want to catch a movie around next week or wat. who want to company mi go, pls tell mi! haiz.

11:15 PM
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Thursday, April 28, 2005

hmmm... aRgH...... i am going to die at home soon liao lor. woke up at 12pm today. last night slept quite late, cos i cant get to slp lor. turning left to right den right to left on my bed. haiz. thking and thking all bout him. missing and missing him. haiz. den also no one talks to mi. so boring. sister dunno go where lor. den she only came home at 5plus in the morning lar. den she also not slping in the room with mi liao, cos she went over to slp with jojo lor. haiz. i am boring boring boring! wake up today, den wash up and also take my breakfast lor. den only i came online lor. check finish my stuff liao den i am away from the com for bout an hour or wat lor. went to room and day-dreaming. den jojo reach home from school liao den get change ler den go out lor. jiejie went to orchard lor. left mi alone again! haiz. WTF... i dun wan alone at home anymore can. only at 6plus all reach home except kor and jie lar. wah lau! i am going to die of boredom at home soon lor. take my dinner first lor-cos parents bought. after that go and bath lor. den i was online lor. hack in kor's desktop. kaox! so many PORN lor. so many for wat lar. IDIOT HIM! so desperate for wat lor. siaox arx. SHEN JING BING!! i deleted away some for him lar. den scan the desktop lor. den i log-off from his desktop liao lor. den he came chatting with mi for awhile lor. also kt chatted with mi awhile. den i went offline after that, cos jojo wanna use lor. i went to watch the tv at 9pm lor. wah lau! tell u ppl something, the 9pm show its very like mi and him lor. the words i said to him is all the same as on the tv lor. haiz. as i am watching, i cried. taking back!
den at 10pm came online again. kt tell mi he and claire something happen lar. why?! its same as mi again. NO FEELINGS MEANS BREAK LER MAHX?! same as the 9pm show also. aRgH...... i am going crazy liao lor. very soon. den he is having problem now lor. dunno wat kt will do also lar. haiz.
k lor. i not going to say all this liao. talk about myself now. haiz. today totally no one contacts mi lor. morning only augusta call mi. no one call mi liao. where are all my frens?! i felt very left out now. totally left out by my frens. i got no more him den now frens also no more. i still stay here for wat?! wah lau! my life for now sucks lor. no one cares for mi anymore. i really need someone that i can lean on now. but who?! i already found liao lor. but dunno will he be back with mi lor. i need someone to be there for mi when i am in need. but there's totally no one. haiz. i just need a hug from someone now. can i. i dunno what is happening to mi since i have lost him. i dun wan this feeling. i wan u back. i am half BREAK-DOWN now liao. aRgHhhh...... den also, i feel like going to the movies. any show will do. who is willing to ask mi for movies. dun thk anyone will be free for mi bahx. or shall i go alone again. haiz. i didnt go for movies very long already. if u willing to go with mi, pls tell mi. pls! i already stay at home very alot of days already. DYING SOON!! i wish he will company mi bahx. haiz. will he wan, i also dunno lar. sobx.
den jus hope fate bring us back together again lor. still waiting and waiting for that day. i dun hope for much liao ler. jus wish for miracles to exist. i miss u, miss u, miss u! loving u still.
k lor... my blog today is quite long. heex. shall end here liao.

11:10 PM
iwantYOUbackwithME

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

hmmm... slept at 2plus yesterday night. before that, i send a msg for him first lor. den lying on my bed, thking and missing him. cried last night again lor. haiz... i am being left alone in my room. sister not slping in the room with mi. the weather is hot, so she went over to slp with my meimei lor. den no one talking to mi. so boring. haiz. sianx. damn sianx. my life is so so boring lor. my life just totally sucks! cant stand it liao. hmm... den i wake up at round 10plus lor, tot kt coming at 10plus mahx. after that i slept back. den kt call mi at 11:30am saying they not coming so early lor. cos he went to see doctor mahx. den i wake up and wash up ler den came online lor. was playing the msn game for awhile den they reach liao lor. its WEIRD... at first, tot he will be the one who will be hiding lar. den end up, having kt and zh hiding lor. hahax. den my whole self felt so weird facing him! aRgH..... WHY?! den they came in, but i was using the computer. after 15mins den went sitting on the chair lor. and, the weather is so hot lar. but living room two fans was being taken off by the 3guys. after awhile den i take one fan from them lor. haiz. watch tv for awhile ler den i went in room lor. while sitting on the chair, my eyes always looking at him rather den the tv. haiz. but thk he caught mi once staring at him. hahax. went lying on my bed lor. i am day-dreaming in there. keep on thking do i still have a chance or wat anot lor. and when i am outside, i also feel very weird facing him lor. that's why i am in the room. haiz. i also dunno why lar. den round 3pm, he came in ask mi wan go eat anot lor, but i say dun wan. den kt and zh ask mi lor, i say dun wan again. jus dunno why lar. but i went to get change and go coffee shop and buy mi and jie de food lor. when i order ler, i saw them at there also lor. went over lor. chatted for awhile den i go get my food and go off ler. haiz.
i just felt weird weird and weird lor. we were once couples, but wat are we now. we are now frens! aRgH....... i dun wan this feeling. can i? haiz. i am waiting, waiting jus for you only.
while he is at my house. know how much i feel like going over to hug him mahx. but i cant do it. he will say i siaox! haha.. lame. but i just feel like hugging him when the moment i saw him. haiz. dunno why, its make mi have a feeling that we will not get back together liao. what am i going to do. die mahx? haiz. shall consider! sobx. :'(
k lor. i shall write till here already.

11:31 PM
iwantYOUbackwithME

Monday, April 25, 2005

hmmm... i am still not well. still having a bad cough. my voice just sucks. haiz. slept quite late ytd lar. cant get to slp bahx. i am alone in the room lor. sis go for chalet dunno how many days lor. damn sianx. actually dun wish to be home ytd wan. but dunno where i can go also lor. haiz. den wake up at 10plus am today. slept back after tat lor. 12plus wake up. den wash up den came online den also take my breakfast lor. haiz. i am home alone. parents working. meimei go sch. jie go chalet. kor NS. my life just sucks big time! no one contacts mi. where is all my frens. where are they. haiz. surf the net, but nth to do. 4plus, dee and angeline came online lor. chatted with them for awhile only lor. sianx. after that, i am here to blog ler lor.
haiz. his final answer is really out izzit. no more meeting up on 1st may mahx. no hope on 1st may mahx. no miracle on 1st may mahx. jus wat is happening lor. shall i blame it on myself for wat i have done on saturday mahx. mayb its just my fault on saturday for him to have his final decision bahx. i thk wat i do now also there's no mending for it liao. why!? all my fault bahx. no more ler, everything no more ler. mayb i just have to face the fact liao lor. haiz.
thk i shall not write much liao lor. haiz.
i am being left out in the lonely and black room of my own. everything is gone. my life just sucks totally.
I MISS HIM!!! LOVING YOU STILL!!!

4:52 PM
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Sunday, April 24, 2005

hmmm... wanna say that. i am badly sick last night. haiz. i didnt managed to get to slp. cos my nose is stuck den my throat is forever wanting mi to cough it out. i am so XIN KU at them moment. just wish to end it bahx. haiz. den i did not slp. came online, to chat with him, tkt, zh... chatted with tkt from 2plus till 3plus den he added zh in lor. also he got chat with mi. but not for long. at first tkt tell mi he going to eat with derrick. when he came back, he chatted with mi. den the tkt went to "have" a rest at 4.45am. but he came back after 10mins lar. lame. we 3 chatted till round 6am. den he ask mi go and have a rest. but i told him i cant get myself lie down cos of my nose lar. haiz. den i listened to him and went offline and go for a rest lor. b4 i went offline, told tkt to get mi breakfast. after that, i went to bed and rest lor. slept for an hour plus. 8am wake up ler. had a msg from tkt asking wat i wan to eat lor. after i reply liao den he called mi ler lor. den at 9plus they reach my house ler lor. heard outside so noisy so i went to look at the hole lor. haiz. den tkt knock on the door ler. know wat i saw mahx, saw him hiding at the other side of the corridor. haiz. sad. after that i took the food in first lor. den tkt went taking a box of panadol give mi saying its from him to mi de. aRgH...... why he dun wan give mi himself. den i went in and out of the house cos tkt wan mi ask jo to wake up lor. den i went out to chat with tkt and zh lor. he told tkt that "if i dun wan den i can throw away." i did the wrong thing. i throw it out of my house. haiz. den i walk in to wake jo up again lor. den went chatting with them again. after 10mins, they both came in lor. sat on the sofa lor. chatted and finally jo is up from bed and finally she came out to face tkt lor. but for mi, haiz. my mum woke up and went out to the door there lor. and saw this box of panadol on the floor. my mum wan to pick it up but den dunno why izzit i was saying "this box of panadol not ours so dun take it lor." kaox. haiz. den my mum also said "what game are we playing." i said and done the wrong thg. den my mum went out to throw rubbish and go and see whether was he there. but he was not there. den i went msging him asking why nv take the panadol for mi himself. he reply if dun wan den can dun eat. no one force you! aRgH...... i was thking. wat did i done wrong again. haiz. den tkt called him ask him where is he lor. he went downstairs. haiz. den tkt and zh also go home ler lor. called tkt and ask him wat happen. den he tell mi the whole thing lor. hope he is not angry over the panadol. the moment they came and he went hiding, i was upset already. tot i would get to see him lor. haiz. why why why!
den in the evening, i went to coffee shop to buy my food lor. haiz. i am very giddy. but bo bian no one buy for mi. so i walk slowly go buy myself lor. as i am walking, keep on thking and missing him. haiz. finish eating den go bath ler. came out den i eat the panadol lor. morning ate 2 den dinner ate 2. den go rest awhile lor. wake up but i am like more worst. haiz. see the panadol, its not for flu and cough. its for toothache, backache and joint pain. aRgH. no wonder. but nvm lor. since he have got the heart to buy for mi bahx. dun wan hope for much. after that den watch tv lor. den i am here to blog ler lor.
jus msg for him.(dunno will he be reading)
did i done something wrong again mahx. am i too late to say a big sorry to him mahx. am i too late to say sorry for wat u have overheard mahx. will i be too late to say "am i too late for everything mahx."
I'm here to say a very sorry to you. hope you are not angry with mi or wat. and also need to thank you for the panadol. jus to say hope i am not too late to say sorry to u. hope i am not too late for everything.
haiz... when will i get well. i just hate the flu i am having now. i just hate the cough i am having now.
i shall write till here liao ler. i really hope one day we will be back together. i miss u alot. loving u de piggy`jac. no matter wat u will always be kept in my heart wan. wo ai ni. i will be waiting for u always my dearest...

12:23 AM
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Friday, April 22, 2005

hmmm... aRgH... haiz... i am sick liao ler. 2nd day liao ler. having the cough that i have last time lor. haiz. den a damn bad flu lor. den also got a fever also. my whole body is very warm. when will i get well. i am sick but why am i not on the bed resting. cos i cant get myself to slp. slept at 5plus 6 in the morning. den wake up at round 12pm ler. eat my breakfast. den i came online lor. online also nothing to do. den saw kengteng online. den he look for mi to chat lor. mi and him chatted for hours lor. from dunno wat time till 7plus pm lor. haiz. sad sad. den at 8pm i went offline ler cos meimei wan to use. den i go for my bath lor. den i heard kengteng told mi that he fall sick! haiz. den i sent him a msg. after my bath, i went out. went out alone. went for 1hr like that. den i felt giddy so i went home ler lor. reach home ler den i go bed and rest for awhile. 12am den i came to blog lor.
hmmm... i am thking about him. how was he now. he didnt reply my msg. mayb he is sleeping now bahx. aRgH.....
i miss him so much. i dun wan to love a person in slience. will that day be coming mahx. haiz. can miracle exist one day mahx. will there still be hope mahx. i will be waiting no matter wat.
i shall end here ler lor. i shall go get some rest liao. my fever is 38.7degrees lor. i only had panadol. haiz.

1:20 AM
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